Je Suis Mocha

Soooo, intro post!

Just as a warning for anyone thinking that they want to actually read these, I tend to get very wrapped up in random thoughts, and can go on extreme tangents. I'm also somewhat addicted to writing things down (I've kept a journal for most of my life, on volume 7 right now) and will probably be quite weird/oddly intense about certain things.

Now that I've included that flag, time to get down to the good stuff: me! And my day today, which was pretty sweet. 

Grandma is here! I always love it when she deigns to saunter on over to Irvine, mainly because she is the coolest person ever but also because there are certain gustatory benefits. And by that I mean the amazing food that our refrigerator is permanently stocked with while she's here. I think it's driving my dad crazy, actually, since for the most part our fridge is usually bare. As in empty. As in the only thing in it is (I'm not kidding) a potted plant and some peanut butter. And occasionally beer. But that usually doesn't last long. So coming home and opening the fridge to have it overflowing with food is pretty much the best feeling ever. Love my grandma. 

Realized today that I lie a lot. Not like, bad lies necessarily, but lies that I tell to make conversation easier when standing in line with random strangers...maybe my life isn't interesting enough to provide me with legit references/anecdotes? Anyway I wonder how much other people lie to me. For all I know, the lady next to me could be completely talking out of her ass when she details her ex-husband's job selling real estate to the Russian mob, or the fact that her son works for NASA. I met the coolest person ever on a plane flight once, who talked about how his job actually entailed having shootouts with pirates who were trying to steal oil from the oil wells in Saudi Arabia (I was somewhat distracted during his monologue by the fact that he had red hair and was wearing a green shirt and I kept on hearing the Lucky Charms leprechaun guy in my head going "They're always after me lucky charms!" when he talked about how the pirates would come up with these elaborate schemes to get to the oil). What's the name of the Lucky Charms guy anyway? Magically Delicious? Or maybe Lucky? Oh god this is going to bug me.

I'm excited to see a movie with Nick tomorrow. Very happy about the number of new/awesome friends I've acquired in the last year or so, and how much closer I've gotten to a lot of people. It's made this whole coming out business much easier...and I think it's really important to have people I can talk to about stuff without any reservations. Everybody needs that in their life. As far as the whole gay thing goes, I was so happy when Nick said he could tell from the way I talked sometimes that I was a lesbian. Yayyy!! It makes me sad that I don't come off that way in general, because I think it would  make a lot of things a lot easier. Not as much shock when people find out, for one thing. And it would mean that people who have a problem with it wouldn't be  friends with me in the first place, which would be a definite plus. Losing friends over this is hard. Especially when, say, someone I've known for several years won't hug me anymore. That's just stupid. If I were honestly going to go find someone, the last place I'd look would be among my conservative straight friends. They're so....boring. Sorry guys. And intolerance (or as Nick pointed out- lack of acceptance) is soooo unsexy. 

And with that, I will end my first entry.